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2007-06-14, 7:15 p.m.

I want my life to fall back into place. It seems to be everywhere. i have problems concentrating when i study. every 5 mins, my mind wanders off. Training and the upcoming national schools seem to like popping out of nowhere into my head.

and i am so tired i could roll over and fall asleep anytime anywhere. forcing myself to stay awake to 2am to study doesnt work. i sleep fall asleep by 12 or 1 am. last night was an exception. but eventhough its tiring and my body feels like its going to collapse, its good training. tomorrow is my rest day. i better recover well. then i can whack all out on saturday again. timetrials 3 days in a row. oh my goodness. but i need to get used to the racing distance.

there is a time and a place for everything. i realised i'm damn weird. to me everyone i know must fit into individual little boxes so i can compartmentalize and store them away in my head. haha. that sounds funny right. it's kind of for easy reference. so i can try to predict what they will or will not say or do. doesnt really work all the time, but at least i know and i won't get so confused all the time. but some people just don't fit. they seem to be everywhere but where i thought they would be haha.

i need to study and sleep. i want to go to school tomorrow. but should i? what excuse can i give my mum. but will it be wasting time going down then going for tuition. i have no idea. sigh.

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