hide and seek - game of avoidance
2007-07-04, 9:33 p.m.

i'm just passing time day by day. i went town again today. maybe i'll finish the presents tonight. and maybe i'll start writing tomorrow. but there is one present i still can take my time to finish haha. and that is good =)

day by day, deteriorating till i have no idea what it is anymore. everyday a little worse than the previous. i have no idea what keeps me going. what puts that smile on my face day after day when all i want to do is frown and brood. Actually anything but smile. it's like living a lie, but there are always the small things in life that can make me happy. which frankly i'm thankful for. small silly little things that can make my day. but i guess i'm easily amused nowadays.

i dread tomorrow. argh. but at least i have back up.

i like playing hide and seek. not. i used to but not anymore. reminds me of a game i used to play with my cousins in the playground. chased by a seeker with his eyes closed, climbing to the top of the roof just to hide. haha. ah those were the days. but hide and seek is an evil game. it is the game of avoidance. the game where you hide and hide and hide, and you refuse to get caught, you refuse to face up to reality. my kind of game.

wonderful - memories