it's not over
2007-09-22, 2:09 a.m.

What happens when your brain tells you to do one thing, but your heart doesnt want to listen?what then. where do i go from this point onwards.

i'm going overseas. HAHAHA. if i can get accepted. which is not that likely considering the amount of brain cells i've bashed into my room walls.

prelims are finally over. two weeks of hard mugging. or rather, the first week of mugging hard and the second week trying to mug as hard or harder, failing to do both of course.

so i'm taking the easy way out, running away rather than facing whatever it is that seems to be scaring me and holding me back. i rather wish nature will come into play actually. But sometimes facing your fears might be the best thing to do.

SATs coming up. search for universities must continue. and the everlasting search for the only thing that actually matters to me. currently. which i don't think i will ever find.

Just like some new door that has been opened to me. i didn't even know such possibilities existed.

something to ponder: We love whom we love, not so much because of the future we hope to build, but because of the past we hope to reclaim.

Never cast a line, unless you're prepared to reel in the catch.

just a new song i decided i liked:
My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?

And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

ok i think that's a nice song. curiosity killed the cat. now nothing can bring me back. haha. and so it will be the everlasting mystery of my dreams.

wonderful - memories