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2007-12-22, 12:55 p.m.

too tired to blog yesterday. could hardly focus my energy and attention. i kept yawning till my jaws ached. even my mum told me to go and sleep. but of course i didn't. who sleeps at 12 anyway. that's just absurd(ok in my books). i'm the weird one. but i should get used to sleeping less again. i realise i can't do without at least 6 hours of sleep. and i'm waking at 10am everyday. i scare myself. if it's a once of thing, i'll accept that, but it's starting to become an everyday affair. how ridiculous. i used to scorn my mum and bro for waking up so late. hmmm maybe this is retribution in the most unconventional form. i'm turning into them. i should just kick the fucking habit lah. zzz.

my arm and hand hurts. i'm a dumbass. i can rub my eyes with the back of my hand, forgetting that i have a wound there and it will start stinging before i remember. and i used my elbow to prop myself up in bed at least 3 times this morning, forgetting my skin near there is almost completely gone. stupid man. stupid wall. stupid me. ouch.

i'm going upstair to sneak in more sleep. what a stupid pig i've become. then i shall have my lunch and change. should i meet them at 3? or later. i don't feel like going so early. i'm restless. so so so restless.

ill at ease.

goodnight again.

do you know i exist, just to promise you this..

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