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2007-12-29, 5:36 p.m.

i came home last night. three days away in batam. but i was feeling too out of it to blog or stay online for long. such terrible terrible stomach ache. i almost died. i think i really felt like i was dying and i haven't felt this way in a long long long long time. the last time was at least 3 years ago. 7 years record gone down the drain. damn i must start again. this time it shall be at least 10 years. i must make sure it stays this way haha.

ok i'm really happy to be back. the three days away though fun and though the food was good, was quite hard to get by. but time passes fast. worst thing was batam is behind singapore 1 hour. but it's just one hour. but it's still one hour. ok i better stop, or i might start arguing with myself haha.

bought clothes. nice nice nice branded clothes for much less than i would have to pay in singapore. what a bargain. and shoes too and a belt too. a whole complete set. and i drank orange flavoured one. the bottle is so pretty =) and i brought back another bottle, so that means two pretty bottles to add to my collection. how fun.

i like the rain today. brilliant excuse =) and i don't think i'll go out for dinner tonight. after all my dad already bought food home while he goes off to some place for dinner. what the heck. but i don't mind. sadly my mum is home. or i could have a ball of a time. and i don't think i'm too keen to eat too much oily food. might upset my poor stomach. and i'll die if my body rebels one more time. i've not enough energy today. and i need more 100plus. stupid dad threw away the half cup i left behind.

stardust stardust!! i must really watch the show properly. i can't believe i missed it in the cinema. sian. last paper that day, supposed to go watch it, but cause i was so busy cutting and bleaching my hair, i didn't manage to catch it. so sad. i shall be patient and get the dvd instead. proper dvd that will have very good picture quality. anyway i think this is so sweet:
You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you love me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

my heart melted when i heard that part of the show. haha.

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