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2008-02-08, 11:50 p.m.

Ok I have decided I shall drink in controlled amounts. Yet I wasn't drunk, just sleepy. Drugged. Still I would rather intoxicate myself on something else. Just that it will have to wait cause it's currently unavailable. But still it was a crazy night. My head felt so heavy my eyelids were closing but I was still awake and I wasn't spouting rubbish haha. My uncles are crazy, they tried to get me drunk. But this means that my alcohol threshold will increase. The more alcohol I can hold, the better, I won't be drunk then. Train from young haha!

Two days of chinese new year is up. I'm tired. And I'm ready to sleep. And I really do want to go sailing tomorrow. It's stupid of my father to insist that I go later cause it's not my fault that I have to go down to grandaunt's place. My sailing was planned a week ago. And my third day of cny is usually free. So it's unexpected and I shall go ahead with my plans. Don't try to hold me back. I don't want the outcome to suck.

Lonely lonely lonely. I shall take less notice of each day as it passes so that it will pass faster. Then I'll be happy again. Two days down. Three to go. Patience is key, it's a virtue. I want to sail tomorrow. Out on the water, without a care in the world. Then time will pass faster before I realise it.

I hope I don't wake with a hangover. It will be gruesome. I need to dress up tomorrow again. I'm feeling so lazy.

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